Princess Laughing Woman

Life and the world are a bit challenging right now.

Every morning for the past month or so, I’ve spent 30 minutes in silent prayer and meditation.

At the end of each session, I ask God, or the Universe, or something bigger and smarter than me, to guide my path.  To give me a sign, some sort of direction, or even just a thumbs up that it’s all going to be ok.

Today, as I finished reading, “I Know This Much is True” by Wally Lamb, a minor character who had suffered throughout much of her life, came back to her home town and the Indian tribe she is a part of.  She came back to new found abundance (thanks to a casino…lol) and took the name “Princess Laughing Woman.”  She became a respected elder in the tribe, she danced, she laughed and told racy jokes, and most importantly, she found her tribe.  Her people.

For the past 25 years, my email has been laughingirl71.  When I read the name, “Princess Laughing Woman,” my heart beat a little faster, and tears came to my eyes.

This was my sign.  As I am rapidly approaching 50, I have been feeling a bit adrift.  My children are grown and fully autonomous, and the mothering role that dominated the first half of my life is not nearly as demanding as it once was.  I’m not in the relationship I thought I would be, not in the career I thought I would be, not in the home I thought I would be.

And that’s ok.  I will find my way, find my tribe, and grow from a laughingirl to a laughingwoman.

And, I’ll probably tell lots of racy jokes as well.

Light and Love,

BL

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